I am currently going into the third week post a major surgery where they removed my right shoulder blade. Yikes. Sounds harsh, right? Especially considering that it’s my dominant arm….yeah it’s unpleasant.
When cancer rears it’s ugly head, it can have a brutal bite.
I’ve been told that I will no longer have any mobile use of my shoulder, but honestly I’m just grateful I get to keep my arm. I know that it could’ve been so much worse. Healing has been going very well and I think I’m making better progress than expected.
But…(you sensed that coming didn’t you?)….I’m not a patient person and frustration has set in.
It takes two to wash and style my hair every few days, my energy level is still lacking, and I haven’t been able to drive or even put a shirt on both arms for almost 3 weeks. The downside to feeling better is that these things are starting to bother me now. I’ve been trying hard to keep perspective and remind myself that it has only been 3 weeks…..but there are days when that is harder than others.
Today was one of those days.
I knew I was grumpy and that I needed to change my focus, but it was getting increasingly difficult to do that as the day drudged on. And then…
I was able to have a small victory by getting my arm in the sleeve of my jacket. Now that may sound silly, but it’s amazing what we take for granted until we can’t do it! I was SO happy! That meant that there in fact was visual progress. And as I was rejoicing, I was instantly humbled as well.
You see, I didn’t deserve that gift of progress. Based upon my attitude and actions, I deserved the opposite. But God, in His merciful grace, gave it to me anyways.
That’s grace. Undeserved grace.
You see, we- as humanity- screwed up big time. God lovingly created us, gave us an incredible world to enjoy and take care of…..then sin entered in and we chose to spit in the face of God, rather than run the path of obedience. When that happened, the sin condition entered into the world and we are all unwillingly enslaved to it.
God could’ve scrapped it all and started over. After all, that’s what we deserved. But He didn’t. He extended to us the most beautiful and precious gift we could EVER receive. He Himself took on human form, gave Himself up, and conquered the enemy that was unconquerable to us. All because of love. His love.
So when He gives us glimpses and examples of grace in simpler ways, we need to take notice. We need to allow those glimpses to remind us of His ultimate gift of grace and thrust us to the foot of the cross in worship and awe.
“For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.”
Ephesians 2:8-9 ESV